Tears of the Week

For those of you that know me, you probably know (and have seen me) shed tears at one time or another. I am an emotional person, and tears come freely (whether wanted or not) to me, in all in emotions. The best tears of course are my tears of joy.

This past week has seen some tears, surprising right?
Yes, it has been a very emotional week on all scales. From disbelief, sadness, anger, over capacitated, and yes, tears of joy.

I am really enjoying reading everyone's posts, and how everyone is sharing their situations, stories, and struggles. I think this is the best way to get through this situation. To lean on those around us, and never forget, we are not alone. I have shared some tears with you this week as well.

I find myself in a roller coaster of emotions from day to day. I am working with the public, and most people, of course are fearful, and unsure of the future. As much as I try to push my fears, and insecurities to the back of my mind, they have surfaced from time to time this week. I am very fortunate to have my team around me at work, who are all sharing the same feelings. I have consoled, educated, trained, and just been someone to talk to, more in this past week, than ever before. I am very grateful that I can be that person for someone that needs it. Especially in this unprecedented time we are now in.

I was on the phone with a customer the other day, and he has just returned home from several weeks in Mexico. He lost his wife 3 days after Christmas to cancer. He decided he would get away to their winter home, as they had planned, before she had passed away. We had an appointment this coming Monday, and he phoned to cancel as he is in isolation. Without a conscious thought I immediately asked him if he needed anything, such as groceries, as he surely did not have much after being gone so long. There was silence on the other end of the phone, I thought we had gotten disconnected. After a moment, he finally answered. He was choked up, and couldn't believe I was asking such a thing, as I was his 'bank' lady after all. He assured me that his neighbors had already done some shopping for him, and he was okay. He was very thankful that I had offered, and was a bit in disbelief, as I believe it was unexpected. I reiterated that if he did need anything, to not hesitate to give me a call. This surprisingly did not cause the tears for me, it was the voice mail he left me about an hour later. He wanted to apologize to me for not thanking me enough for offering to help. He was so surprised that I had offered, he was speechless. He wanted me to know that I was a special person, with a big heart, and he was very grateful. I was humbled, and as I had said, there was no thought involved in asking, it was a natural response to his situation. His voice message caused my tears.

We have heard this many times in the last week from our leaders at Kung Fu, and I cannot stress enough, that now is the time to be that positive, caring person for someone. It, now more than ever, could possibly be the positive difference in their lives. Be thankful and grateful for what, and who we have in our lives, including our Kung Fu family.

My brightest highlight of the week was our online I Ho Chuan class, as it felt it was the only normal part of my week, to be in class. Even though it was from my living room, once I was in the moment, nothing was different, and nothing else mattered. And again, I cannot express my gratitude, and appreciation enough to Master Brinker, and the entire team that has made it possible for us. I have shared many tears with you this week. Thank you....