Blogging and Self Doubt

 I am in my 3rd year of the IHC, and in my 3rd year of blogging, although my first year was not great, my second year better, and this 3rd year to be the best yet! I have never blogged before this, I am not a journaler, and didn't have a diary as a child. 

Along with this newly found way of tracking my journey, comes a lot of self doubt for me. Is what I am writing relevant to my journey, is it coming across as I intend, or is it sounding like white noise to just get a blog out? I struggle with this with every blog I write, including this one. I read others blogs, and am amazed at what I read. Some have an amazing way of getting their thoughts across to the reader, and have a beautiful style of writing, I am in awe. I often feel that I know exactly where they are at, and why can't I write, and come across like that? Then I have further self doubt, Am I letting mediocrity creep in? Or is this part of my path to Mastery? I do not wish they could write any differently, quite the opposite, I wish I could be more like them. 

Last year one of my goals was to be active with not only my blogging, (as is my requirement) but also with every blog/post to come out. Self doubt rears its ugly head again. Is what I am responding to taken in the right context, is it warranted, or helping, or again is it white noise? I am not a malicious person, and I would never write anything to cause harm, but have I? As far as I know, there has only been once that something I commented on was taken the wrong way. I felt horrible, and responded right away to what I was actually meaning, but nonetheless, I felt and still do feel awful that the person I wrote it to, took it the wrong way. Or did they? Sometimes it is hard to decipher a meaning when it is only in writing, but for a good part of the year last year, this was the only way to keep in touch with our team mates. 

I am baring a little bit of me with this blog, and something I struggle greatly with. I am not doing it as a pity party, but I am looking for any insight, suggestions, or thoughts. Does anyone else feel this way? Am I alone in this? One thing I am proud of, is I did not let this hold me back, and I continue to blog, continue to comment, and hope for the best outcome. And here I am writing my 3rd blog in 2 days, another first for me! 

Thanks for reading, and sharing your journey's with me!