I’m not sure why I am doing these blogs in parts really, as I think my mindset is always the number one factor in everything I do. But nonetheless, this is a certain track I am following at the moment, in a time of struggle.
Since my last blog, training has improved somewhat. Not where I would ideally like to be, but not as stressed out as I was. One of the main reasons for this is reaching out, and doing a one on one. This helped me immensely as when I actually speak the words of how I’m feeling, it seems to take the power away from the negativity. It also helps to know, and be told that I am not alone, it is not the first time, and it won’t be the last. I do know this, but when you are in that bubble of stress, common sense tends not to be forefront.
Probably the one comment that was made towards the end of my one on one, resonated the most with me. I didn’t even mention my mom as part of my struggles and stress points at this time. This really made me reflect on this, as of course this has not been an easy journey. My response was that it is part of my everyday life now, therefore for the most part it just is. I have learned to flow with it. I’ve learned to adjust when needed, and to remain positive, even though I know there is not going to be improvement. Sure, there are points of pressure, change, and higher stress times, but it is expected, and I simply adapt to what is needed at the time. Yes, there are struggles, but they don’t seem to throw off my entire schedule for the most part.
Why then, am I struggling so much right now? Yes, work is a different stress, but I also know that it is something that is always going to be there. For the foreseeable future anyway. I have reflected a lot on this in the last couple of weeks. I have made improvements, and it seems to be working well. I will leave this for part 3 of my trilogy, so as not to ramble on too mich.
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