The good, and not so good

 I’ve gotten the results of my MRI. The good news is, the tendons and ligaments - ACL, MCL, LCL are intact, and it appears I have been doing the right things to help heal the ACL injury. 

The not so good is I have a meniscus tear, and high grade thinning of the cartilage, and deterioration of the tissue. Not sure exactly what this means yet, or the next steps to recovery. I now have to wait another 3 weeks to see my specialist. 

So I will continue to do what I can, push myself as much as I can, and learn to adjust. Pivot when needed, and keep positive on this journey. A new road I have been lucky this far to not have travelled, but that is life. I do wish the wait times were not as long, but not much I can do about that. I’ll see my physiotherapist next week to see what I can be doing to speed this recovery as much as possible, now that at least I have an answer as to what the issue is. 

Life will always have a different path to follow than what we envision, and it is up to only ourselves in how we choose to respond, and continue on as best we can. 

Impatient

 I’ve been getting quite impatient lately with the progress of a diagnosis for my knee. Due to that, I have been pushing a little too hard at times. I then regret that for the next several days. I still have quite a bit of swelling and pain, and no real direction on how to alleviate this. 

My MRI is this week, finally. I can only hope that I will finally get some answers, and some direction to healing properly. My knee may never be the same again, but hopefully there is a path to recovery that will define what the future holds. I’ve not let the injury hold me back, as I’ve adjusted where needed. But, there is certain moves I am unable to do (like kneeling), and my hope is to be able to heal enough to do these movements again. 

Time will tell, and although we cannot predict the future, I do have high hopes for more normalcy. 

Deadlines

 We talked about getting ready for the next deadline, at our meeting on Thursday. This got me thinking in a different way. 

What if tomorrow was always the deadline? What if we started each day thinking it was the day to get prepared for the next day, or next class, as that was the deadline? Would it change the way we train, and our mindset of what needed to be accomplished? 

I do think it would alleviate the ‘panic’ mode of a deadline date. If we started everyday with tomorrow being our deadline, I believe our training would be more of a habit versus something that needs to get done because we have to.

Just some thoughts I’ve been pondering in the last few days.  I’m working on changing my mindset. Everyday is a new day that brings many opportunities. I’ve been working on being more receptive to opportunities presented to me. I’m also trying to be insightful, and grateful with the little things that happen each day. I’ve been reflecting throughout the day, as situations arise; and at the end of the day to see if there was something I could have done better. This is helping with my mindset as well. Mastery is always a work in progress, and mediocrity is always there rearing it’s head. 

The Best Decision

 Tomight was one of those nights…

I went back to work today after nine days off, and as usual I regret taking time off to begin with. So much work to catch up on, even though I tried to keep up while off. But keeping up with emails, and actually doing the work is a vast difference. Emails and voicemails coming in at light speed, as they know I’m back today lol. Up way too early this morning, as my mind was already going a mile a minute knowing what kind of day it was going to be. 

Exhausted by the end of the work day, and the thought of not going to Kung Fu flitters in my mind. In 9 and a half years, this is not the first time. And like the other times, it turned out to be one of the Best classes!! So grateful I went, and of course learned so much!! I’ll have to blog about it another time, when it’s appropriate, but I know this will stick with me. 

The Best Decision….keep your commitment, there won’t be any regrets.