Self Reflection

I have been self reflecting a lot lately. I am trying to find the positives, and ways to turn the negatives around. This is something I always try to work on, but it has been more of an external, and internal struggle as of late. Part of grading for a black belt, is not only a lot of self reflection, but to write it down and share it. This is the hard part. 

What makes me a black belt? What are my strengths, my weaknesses? When needing to read a book, answer questions, write an essay, an exercise that is laid out for me; that is the easy stuff. Reflect, externalize, explain, that is the hard part. I don't expect it to be easy, but I didn't realize I would struggle this much. 

This is something I should be doing, everyday, and in every situation, but do I? Do I actually learn from my mistakes, do I take advantage of every opportunity presented? These are questions I have been asking myself for years, but do I pay attention, and ask at the right times? I do not think this is a negative, but rather the opposite. I am human, I am not perfect. I like to learn, I want to be better. I want to better for me, and for those around me. 

A struggle, but also an opportunity. A learning curve, but also part of my journey.